provocation vacation

i want to kill someone right now. if murder wasn't illegal think i just might. if you were in my shoes, you'd do it too. the thing is i'm not alone. i know ten people who would do it too. it's not my fault that that person is jobless and it's summer and i need the radio and the earphones are bacterial and he's immature, and dumb, with nothing to do but watch tv all day, and he's such a hypocrite. with everyone else there, he gets so plastic. i hate him. in every sense of the world. to think i only really hate three people. well one of them i only half-hate. is there such a thing? it's annoying, how hate can drive a person to do a lot of bad things. he asked for it.

actually i'm kinda annoying him on purpose by not being affected or getting mad like he does. makes him look bad. losing temper on a young girl who's doing nothing.

it's strange, the littlest things get to me right now. i guess that's normal though. hormonal it is. i try avoiding it, usually. today isn't one of those days, sadly. this could be the effect of summer and lack of other emotions too. maybe my brain is desperate to feel an inkling of an emotion. i don't know.

our report cards weren't released today, sadly. there was a strike. where is our country going to? oh well. i have been online for around 4 hours now. lack of things to do in here.

i'm irritable and sad. why am i this moody today?

something sad happenned yesterday. but isn't it strange, how bad things go the whole day, then someone comes, you forget everything else? like my mind inevitably goes blank and all the negative things disappear..suddenly it's living the best day ever. something like that. thank you!! haha. you might know by now that it's you.