finally

i commuted all by myself for the first time today and i'm proud. it's a pretty shallow thing to be proud of but yeah, i still am. *blueteeth*

the butterflies are there all the time... it's starting to irritate me that there's always a nervous feeling in my gut like when riding a roller coaster or being top of a cliff. it's there all the time, i still don't know the reason why.

okay, so it's starting to sink in. and seven months and one day from now, God knows what's going to happen.

and maybe he was right that i'm unwanted. but someday won't hurt.

it's all good. it's all good. it's all good. *brainwashself* there, it's all good! :D i hope things work out, that it'll be fine. and it will. i still believe in God, and that he works wonders. i hope this one will be one of those wonders. *fingerscrossed*

my name is still bugoy to 2s. :( and to ms. lim. omg i wrote 2s. i mean 3s. i miss 2s. i miss not seeing clones of people. i'm not saying 3s people don't have originality. 2s just took it to the max.

anywho, i must go now. i don't know how i'm gonna sleep tonight as i slept for four hours this afternoon. oh yeah, the club orientation was awesome.

i might get my camera soon. goodbye canteen food. i shall miss your hot pasta and sago gulaman and rocky road cookies (!) that i remove the choco chips from. i shall miss not having to bring my tin lunchbox. hello cold rice. and watery ulam. *uck*

i'm angry that she had to meddle with something i'm the one paying for. God please don't let me be hormone powered and be angry at every little thing. please.