am i ready?

yes you're ready

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count on my mom to make things better when she senses that i'm sad and when she sees my puffy eyes. she scheduled a leave from work so we could explore UP today, pick my bed and then watch a movie. i LOVE my mom.

and tennis! i love it! my team is undefeated! i am a proud, proud team leader. something about being in tennis makes me really REALLY happy and it's not the endorphines because i feel sad again when i leave. oh and go sat on the slim space beside me even if.. aaaa. haha my knee touched even if it was disgusting and sweaty. and this kid likes me she hugs me and holds my hand. haha strangers and yet they seem to care.

God's really nice. When he gives you bad things or really hurtful things, it's his way of probably bringing you back to him and showing you through good news or little slivers of happiness, unexpected calls, funny stories and sarcastic tv shows that life still is good..even if it hurts in the parts that matter.

i don't know how i'll handle things but i am a strong believer that people CAN rise above themselves. sometimes, it's my downfall..but in the end, that same belief makes ME rise above myself, which is what really matters anyway.

i don't know if it can go on like this.

..altogether wonderful to me.