pointless ramblings

it doesn't have to be like this you know. know that i'm not who you think i am. you haven't even seen me yet, nor have you spoken to me. and you ask what he has that you don;t? i mean, what is that? i could name a million things, yeah. but the main difference is that i actually know the person. try to quit the drama. oa. it's not worth it at all. you have no right in the first place. the guilt started to come but i swallowed it because i realized it isn't worth it, not this time. it's nice, the things you said. but that's just shallow. try to get to know me first will you? but i guess not.

i've changed a lot. rude awakening: doing things for the sake of it is very wrong. sometimes i forget. witnessing people fall in love but they aren't really. i never want that to happen. oh well.

yes, i can never be too happy. which is fine. disappointment can kill. but hey it's a sign. recently my life has been revolving around signs...like i was playing with pong, our dog. i threw the sandwich at him then i said that if he catches it, meant to be kami. he caught it.

yeah, signs are cool. the world is super mysterious and i guess that we (well i think i do) have to constantly watch out for them..see what the world tells you.

God must be tired of my prayers. haha, paulit ulit nalang. and most of the time they dont come true anyway..like..nevermind..yeah. sometimes it's hard to not wonder if the big guy even listens at all. but it's nice to keep on trying..gives a sense of hope and that crap.

i miss my friends.