things...

i don't really know why or how i'm finding the time to type this. anywhoo.

i am happy and sad and guilty all at the same time. i don't know what to call this. hapsagui?hahahahaha.

happy because i have hot shots and kadamay/s for today.

sad because of a lot of things that i dont want to remember anyway. sad because of stress.

guilt because my mom got me a new phone like my old one and i think she got it because of the math certificate i got. im guilty since it was something i didn't really work hard for since geom is the only subject that doesnt require you to study. :( she might get disappointed when she sees my report card, particularly in panitikan. it's kind of depressing actually. it's not that i dont appreciate it but it feels so wrong.

so i made my promises to myself, only the feasible ones. i decided to take my promises seriously.

my schedule is CRAZY. i'm estimating an average of going home at 12 am and sleeping at 2 or three. it's frustrating but i got myself into it, so i have to do it.

i'm also looking forward to a lot of things, which i hope won't disappoint me. my computer vice is kinda subsiding. not entirely, but it has no choice anyway.

it's strange how life goes sometimes. when things are gone, the cliche is to miss them, but i guess there's some kind of self healing duct in our bodies somewhere, triggered with forgetting.

and i learned that sometimes our demise can lead to something even better, or to our benefit. we just have to learn to accept it and then live with it, and then it doesn't seem so bad anymore.

anyway at the priory kick off practice today, i had a perfect view of cello boy. i was staring half the time. haha. this is so wrong. but i don't care. haha..haaaaaa.

i dreamed about fecit potentiam. it has been running in my head. it is annoying. my position on stage is in between nuns. i felt so demented. this sucks.

anyway i have to study geometry. i miss sleeping. i slept for 3 hours only today, i wonder how long i'll sleep later.

i was thinking of a really nice ending for this post a while ago but i forgot about it just 10 secs ago. so i'll end it with a smile nalang. :)