coffee cookie crisps and chemistry

today was happy and strange! hahaha. bitter--> better. :D im happy..not that im ever sad just this time its not on the surface happy. it's there. uhh so today we had elective night it was fun paramita played tomorrow will be itchy worms today i flew! haha i wanna switch my elective next year am i babb;ing or what? im starting to like chemistry. hahahaha. isnt it strange how a lot of things in the world's just a pose? i dont know. haha. i need to meet new people. things are getting pretty old and some things are getting too deep and here i am with my iwontevereverletyougo cycle. haha! i need more change. i mean im getting my dose of it, just not in the right aspects of things. 2s was my golden year. i miss 2s. i miss the strange people. haha. i dont think i'll ever ever ever have a class like that ever again

today i was thinking of the things we wont be able to do in college:

1. hug and kiss seatmate in excess
2. scream who has a napkin, guys? in class
3. stare and suddenly laugh
4. dekwatro and improper sitting
5. skip around. and around.
6. put feet up on armchair
7. twirl hair on fingers (i dont know why i cant do this when im with people who arent in my all girls school class)
8. THE jokes. :D and the LOOKS. :D
9. not comb hair for four days straight
10. lafhv nefhrkjh vkrjhkjdfh dkahf

GIGIL

i miss my old escapes. i waste too much time and i'm not even enjoying it. times are hard for dreamers. and i dont seem to mind actually. in the gutter all i do is look up.

my life is so pointless it's getting funny. isnt it strange how we all live to die? maybe if i live big, i'll die big too. maybe i'll die with meaning. doesn't that sound quite nice? i think it does. live live live live live. the bigger the star, the more interesting its death. (we're all stars. the particles forming the earth came from dust from the stars so we're all stars isnt that amazing?)