euphoria

everything was so perfect. once i got there i took my clothes off and ran to the beach. it was so fun. mango shakes by the ocean with hardly anything on. the wind was perfect. my tan lines are the bomb. i wrote a letter on tissue paper to things and people i want to let go of. i folded it to a paper boat and let it float away to the almost setting sun. then i walked away. we waited for the sun to set. it was the most beautiful sunset i've seen. but i havent really seen sunsets in a while so i woudn't know. you should've seen it with your own eyes. so anyway, after the sunset, i had a hangover. we drove to tagaytay where it was suddenly so cold. the stars were all out. i lay down on the grass of our neighbors in canyon. then when it was nearing midnight i got my sarong and put it in the middle of the asphalt road where i waited for the meteor shower. i saw the meteor shower. it was so beautiful. i didnt even wish for anything more. to top it all off, there were fireworks nearby. i wasn't missing anyone at all. it was the life. THE LIFE. could the day be any more perfect? you didn't ruin it at all by not being there again. in fact i was quite happy you went away for the nth time. it made me feel lighter and it made me feel not worthless.

due to ego problems, having my period suddenly, small church, lots of people and lack of food in my system, i passed out in church. haha! it was strange. and happy.i got a lecture about food and i think they think im anorexic which is not good and when i eat they say very good you're eating. haha my family is quite strange. i get really sick when i suddenly get my period. i had terrible dysmenorrhea but praise the Lord for pain killers!!

now i'm home and i have like a million pictures of flowers! I LOVE FLOWERS. haha. things are back to normal with tito and we're actually talking again and yes, we're really such a dynamic duo hahaha. we're reeeeeally bullet proof. haha galing sobra. our friendship has faced so much trials. i missed him a lot and here im talking to him and laughing at zanjoe's chill song. yahoo. and there are lotsa shooting stars. and i'm motivated to study too. this'll stay with me in a while. let go and let God. look at what God did to me! love, you so much, God. and i'll sleep in a while.

bottomline is, i'm happy. i haven't been this happy in years. Amen to this.