sometimes the sun comes round the moon

the ghastly place moved me. i could just imagine phantom people dancing with the stars at the side. even worse, i thought of me dancing there in the middle of phantom people. it was so magical, i can't really explain it. it wasn't something you'd see in the movies. it was one of those halls where people danced in storybooks you read as a kid. i didn't care that i had to usher nuns. i was just dreamy the whole time. ana had the same sentiments, actually. it was weird. i could go on all day about the sparkly lights and the quiet music and how the carvings seemed so perfect but i won't.

today was okay (technically speaking it was yesterday but anyway), i mean, being pulled out from class and eating jell-o surprise isn't bad at all, neither is secretly taking pictures and surfing the net. i went back to school only for elective and i swear if this goes on for more than two days, i will be a walking glob of lard.

i'm scared for physics. i'm scared for my grades. i don't like my schedules. i'm scared that i might suddenly break down. in fact i'm scared for so many things. i'm sad about many things, but i when i mutter a prayer, things seem to be okay. there's so much on my mind. i hope my mom gets together with uncle charlie. hahaha, yeah right. i really want to watch el fili tomorrow. i miss tito a lot but i guess this was going to happen anyway... it's irreversible and i guess he wouldn't want me there. either way i'm proud of him.

life is good.today manang anabelle got burned and it made me feel really horrible because i saw it and i watched her take the pain with so much grace, and i guess today i'm thoughtful, so it made me think of so many unrelated things about life. all it took was fire. it's strange. isn't life strange? yeah life is strange, stranger than the movies. we always get the grey. we never really get our happy endings. we make them in our minds. it's 2 am i haven't started economics oh well i won't sleep anymore. bye world, i love you.