always isn't forever

if only i had known, i would have stayed much much longer because nothing beats wasting time. with yooooou. :(

but i have ten million reasons to be happy! today was a day filled with cheap thrills and things like that can really make you forget about things you have to keep in your mind such as the future! haha i look so much into what i want to happen for tomorrow or all of my big big dreams that i forget that i have to live in the present. too. but in more ways than one that's what i really really want to do. i'm in high school for goodness' sake. i wish i had all the guts that i want to have. then maybe i'd be happy instead of courteous. haha!...

today was a happy day. i had regrets but today was something.

God i hope sunday evening comes already. don't we all love that expectant excited feeling? i don't know. but i do! hahaha!

sometimes i think that some people should go down in history more than others. LALALALA.

i'm happy na ewan i dunno how to describe this feeling! i'm content but not satisfied. haha they may be the same but really they aren't. :D

i still miss you and i'd say that ten million times if it means that you'd be here beside me. but i'll just look at you because if i say that ten million times my laway would be dry and i'd have funky breath and you'd never talk to me again. so i'll just watch you smile and i'll smile back because i've been saving smiles for you. haha!..

and i'm sure you won't find toad the wet sprocket hoi polloi and nothing else will matter right?hahaha. I WISH. and you won't really mind the annoying things that i do and i really hate the way i feel! haha i know that i mean nothing to you how does it feel that you mean the world to me? haha maybe not the world but at least mine. haha! i don't really care that we don't agree on anything at least we always have something to talk about this is going to take a long long while..


afraid to find that all the hope that you had sent into the sky by now had. crashed. and it did. because of me...spin around me like a dream hey baby maybe...