stuffy ka-toffy

i'm dead tired. i want to die. i woke up at 530 then went straight to the tennis courts. then dressed up went to ahs. (leeeeeeeeeeeeee) then rushed to glee rehearsals. im home now. i have tons of homework. next week is hell week. all i want to do though, is play tennis. haha. i suck at it but i like it anyway.

so yeah thanks soooo much to 4b. thanks guru for lending the books plus postal. thanks rein! oo sige kayong dalawa lang naman nagccomment rito kaya thanks for that na rin hahaha. thanks neil and cham for waiting.

rewind. we went to the women's correctional. feels so heavy. i couldn't hold back my tears when i was conducting the interview. it's something i will never ever ever forget. my partner was sent to prison for something she didn't do and i believe her. nanay sapia. she came from mindanao and then went to manila to work. she went to saudi to work but because of the constantly changing weather, she bled--her ears her eyes, her nose and stuff. so she was sent back to the philippines and when she came back someone accused her of drug pushing. now she's sentenced for 8 years. i hate this. why does her life have to suck so much? her family cant visit her because theyre inmindanao and have no money. her husband, well he remarried. she tells me she puts problems at the back of her mind and concentrates on strengthening her faith and working and studying instead. i hate it i hate it i hate it. she's sonice. things like this shouldn't happen to her.

suddenly my stupid problems are so petty. but i did see..things. today. and for some reason, that drives me. no matter how hard i try, it won't go away. so i'll just use it. it makes me tons sad though. it's not the crying kind of sad. its the eat your insides alive kind of sad. i just stayed there a while ago and stared. haha. it's funny. in fact it's so funny that it's sad. iwillneverlosehope tenthousandspoonswhenallyouneedisaknife

I NEED TO STUDY

HANNAH FIX YOUR LIFE