Friday nights have been lonely

change your plans and then phone me.

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But I am more than happy with the way things are going. Okay first, I got in the open immersion. I mean, I really prayed for that. So Bacolod, HERE I COME! I am so thankful. Then then, our pictures for history week won first place! I asked for that as a sign for something. However, I am scared that something bad will happen because I am happy, basta, it's hard to explain. College still scares me. Don't mind my previous post. That was about the outreach we had last week and the divisoria trip. Our adopted community's this little community with special people. I'm hoping to learn new things from that since I really don't know how to handle special people. I mean I try to be sensitive but Ms. said that we ought to treat them like normal people, which is hard. Talking in sign language is so slow but that's how everyone is there, even the blind. It's so hard to think of games which include everyone because yeah, some are immobile, some cannot see and some cannot..process things? But they're all special and it's extraordinary and overwhelming. I feel so blessed. I guess this is part of something. Our family's building a school in QC, which will foster to special kids and it's a weird coincidence. Instead of us moving there, we'll just build a school. I find that so cool. I might live there if i pass UP or Ateneo (pray pray). Yahoo.The LSCET was difficult. The science part was so.. er. Futures scare me but I am hopeful.

Anyway, it's 12:30 and I haven't studied for economics. I need to fix my life :))

I'm happy that I don't need anyone to prod this. I mean, I really can't explain it, but I guess I want this more than I want other things. For now anyway. I'm holey but that's how it goes. We can't have everything. Specially the things we want so badly sometimes. I mean, I'll probably keep on hoping for things to be like they were when they were happy but I guess it was going to happen anyway. I hate how I can't fix this. All in good time. I have 6 months left in high school, i can't believe how fast things went. I hope for the best though. I always do.

I miss

I'm still stuck here waiting but whatever it is, the wait isn't so tedious. I'm living while I'm at it, and I'm trying to be happy. It's the least I can do and so far, it hasn't been hard at all. As I've always believed, there are many aspects to life and to love and I'm thankful for the ones I can have.

you and me, well we could change the world.