maybe to feel real

sometimes, we get carried away by the moment that we forget about the people who really matter. we forget about the people who're in it for us..the people who tell us they love us, the people who actually show it, the people who try to suck up to us when we're not ourselves. we get caught up in our own misery that we forget that it's in these times that the bigger thing out there..fate? i dunno not really, but whatever it is gives leeway for us to find people who will care for us no matter what. people who sense that something is wrong. people who don't need to find out why, but people who will assure us that everything will be okay and that they will be there for us. and in the end they're right. things eventually feel okay. we see that life is real with the pain we just couldn't take at first. as the pain gets tangible, so do the people. we get used to the pain. one day we wake up and realize it's gone and there's a surreal feeling of newness that seems so uncomfortable in a good change way. it's something you've felt before. something ancient. and then you realize that you're happy.

i'm just not sure if i'm happy in every aspect. but having people around me makes everything okay, everything bearable. having people who love me makes life worth the live. well, having people people makes you capable of the live itself. haha.

Please God please