time is never time at all

i realized last night that i'm lucky to be human.

if i were a robot, i'd think i'd be broken everytime i leaked. since i'm human, i'm free to cry and maybe, at that given time, we are, figuratively, broken, but something about being human makes you know that even without tools, you'll be fine in the end.. life is so much bigger than we make it, most of the time. maybe we just don't have the chances to make it as big as we want to, but i don't know, i think most of the time it's in our hands..or in our heads. and lucky we're humans, cause hey, we can take charge. seeing what i saw made me think a lot. being human is a responsibility..our responsibility to the world.. to live, to die big and make the dash sign of our birth and our death bigger than the numbers around it. to make that mark, even just a small one. it's our responsibility to take care of those who coexist with us. like, for example, the animals. they can't start wars against us. they can only watch their homes being destroyed and taken away. it's weird how our wants can take away their needs, and ultimately, their lives too. animals are amazing creatures yet some humans, who tend to forget that they are, are just derided with all their vanity and it puts them up, not knowing that they put others down. it's hard to imagine what one tiny face can do with the magnitude of things happening. i'm still on that. haha

meanwhile, things have been pretty much better. not a bad summer at all cept for rein not being there. friends are making things better. props to X for our meantime happy day and for going with me in the undercover mission. and to kitty for pirates! hope hope hope. such a bishy. haha.

i'm looking forward to a lot of things. i'm moving in soon! i'm really hoping for the best. meanwhile, i'm just trying to make things better. i have an addiction for gilmore girls. haha. i'm nutty as ever. i'm telling myself bedtime stories for sleep! haha. in my mind everything just seems right.

subic was fun. hell yes. got kissed by a camel. i've taken a liking for camels, mind you. haha. i'm in love with sea lions too. a tiger was put in my lap! haha i really don't like narration. specially typed up, so my uber cool experience ends there for here. haha.

seeing her was so awkward. i can't explain it.

i really believe in.. things.

I AM MISSING YOU TO DEATH.