let's get the shit kicked out of us.. by love.

it's 2 am and i just finished watching love actually for the nth time and i will always always always melt like butter because of that movie. i won't go ranting about the scenes because it will be long and boring. i'll never ever get tired of watching that one.

anywhoo caloy's gone now and i'll miss him a lot. he brought the cold. i can't force myself to sleep now. i've been having the strangest dreams ever. i think i actually like sleeping now because of my dreams. i even remember my nap dreams. like i while ago i dreamed that i was with tito and he was smoking and i was telling him to stop and he gave me a long lecture about how the length of your life isn't important blablabla. and this morning i remember i dreamed that it was the opening of the da vinci code or something and everyone was there in their formals and stuff and surprise surprise my hair grew and for some reason i got mad with...and i went outa the main place and when i went out there was a yummy fondue fountain and all the yummy fruits and he ran after me (yeah i know this is literally in my dreams because no one'd really do that) and told me to eat a watermelon and then i went away and he followed me and then he put his arm around me and cheek to cheek he tried to say sorry. but i went away to some enchanted place. it felt so real, even my dream self screamed for me to wake up. seriously i never thought it was possible. my other dreams include wild monkeys biting me and gomez telling me the antidote but that's too weird.