the reality grows

it's weird how i can break in between just a thunmb and an index finger but also how i can magically recover too.

i'm giving up. i wish to tell you how you didn't have to disappoint me that way. i wish to tell you how much i waited. maybe not all my life, but when it sunk in. if you're just going to give me false hopes, just please please tell me so i dont build up this expectation, that maybe you could change..when clearly its practically impossible for you. i forgave you, but i don't like you at all. specially now. i guess i never did. i had hoped you'd change that, but you didn't. on and on you just leave. always your back turned. i wish to tell you that and i think i just might. you suck.

why are some people like that?

i'm not falling apart. in fact i think i can start new. i hope i can. im not liking some things but im trying to change what i can. but what i can't, i'll leave and start anew..

i like beginnings.