the charade is over

when they say things you don't know won't hurt you, it's just an excuse.

anyway, things will subside cause time heals all things. it can break things too, but time is bendable. you can choose things. tiny prayers to father time.

anyway, tennis has been really fun. i played 5 times this week, and i'm getting really, really dark. but it's all good. for some reason i don't really care about my skin tone. being brown means i'm not afraid to face the sun. alright!

college life feels pretty weird to me. the other day i got home at 2 am and i haven't really done that, save for prom and stuff. impulsive behavior to get your mind off things. it's weird how the people i'm with lately are just starting to grow on me. i mean, i've been around the same people more or less for eleven years and here i am in this totally new dimension. and it's UP. how many people went to UP diliman from my side of town? very little. even my friends from other schools are in admu dlsu and ust. so i've been wandering around lately, and i guess it's good. i really love my school already. i love the mix of people. and the scenery as well. and the profs are genii! haha.

saturday was strange. lucky me i saw jiggy g and arjay. but man, how the passion sucked. well the concept was just strange for me anyway. romnick sarmiento or sarmienta or i don't know wasn't such a fitting jesus. and the whole asia thing was strange. almost unreal. there were lots of things that could've used improving, really. so not a very good first play from dulaang UP.. but i guess the other plays are nice. that's what i hear at least. arjay and i laughed at it a lot. and romnick had tattoos. he looked arrogant too. jesus. npi. and i couldn't really sympathize wth mary. and the actors acted comedic, or maybe it was the lights. anywho, i'm in the mood to babble. i can't wait for the simpsons movie. spiderpig cracked me up so much. i really want to buy the homer philosophy but at the time i was in powerbooks i didn't have 800 to spare. next time i swear i'll buy that. and the toilet stuff. spiderpig spiderpig!!

i just got back here and i haven't unpacked for the week. tomorrow i swear, i will use the free day goodly. haha! i'm really learning about money lately. how fast it leaves. i never really thought of it in high school cause i just brought baon but now i think i'd like to monitor myself. or something, so i can treat myself to something over the weekend. when i'm not busy with school at least. it's funny how in the dorm, even if you aren't close to people, there's a bond. it's cool. people here are okay when they are. my friend gina is hilarious. she's korean. she buys so much food. she talks fun and she's really quite amusing. the best person i've probably met around here is pao. he's really kind and understanding. everyone thinks so. he makes sense when i talk to him and hen he tells me things. he's like an older brother. so is joe. for some reason we're in proximity a lot so people confuse us. and lira is a complex person. i don't know. she's really cool. the people here are. so i guess adjusting isn't so bad. i just broke down the other day cause i was really sad and needed katha or kitty. i realize how much we need each other and how much we miss each other. that's how we are when we talk. stories, stories. endless stories.

i realize i shouldn't get used to the base 50. people fail cause they were accustomed to it. i won't fail. yay me. i wanted to see the cs list so badly for inspiration but i didnt find it. oh well. its a small katipunan world. funny how i dont see the people i expect to see.

i'm still confused, but getting better.
life's a great oh well sometimes but hey,we will cope. :)