it's got to be and it's got to hit you

i have to focus. focus focus focus. it's so hard to do that lately. things bug me. is this just a phase?

lately i'm learning the power of self. of thinking before you say things, before you act. little by little i'm starting to appreciate myself :) even in the littlest way. i'm becoming stable, and and i'm just driven to improve. i really want to be better. i want to be happy. i still cry a lot about one thing, but that's the only thing and in time it will be gone. my life is super. i thank God for where i am, and there are no regrets. on my part at least. what emotion is that? when you want to regret something for a person? haha what a feeling.

i love school, and i worry about some things but i just have to know that i can take 'em on, i guess. i just want things to be okay. life is marvelous, after all. it deserves to be lived. i know now what i want to do with my life, after photography. i want to be a human rights lawyer. but it's scary. there might be death threats, so i'm considering corporate law, but i want to do something meaningful with my life. so human rights is cool. and it's something i've always been affected with. seeing things happen and not being able to do anything about it sucks a lot. still thinking though.

i love my Rein bear a lot. isn't that the best cherry on top ever?