read this entry when the background is iris

just came from outside the house. it's so nice there, so private and yet so free. the air was cold and the stars were out. and i had a barbeque chicken burger. all was going well. playing in the beckground, iris..it was..nice..surreal. one by one memories came and stuff. it was so weird. was texting several people and yet there was this feeling of only wanting someone. OKAY, getting too emotional here. haha, anyway, i discovered that our dog who i just usually snobbed was indeed a very good listener. the best pare. for the first time i truly truly felt what it's like to be an invisible eyeball, what it feels like to be of this world and yet unworldly. You're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and I don't want to go home right now and all I can taste is this moment and all I can breathe is your life 'cause sooner or later it's over I just don't want to miss you tonight...i wanted to just stay there forever. be in that scene..not come home..just stay there..where everything was so unreal, celestial..when i was just the girl made from the same chemical as stars..where nothing really mattered. when everything was just a crazy dream and i was at the verge of getting up...nothing mattered. nothing mattered..and it was just me, the dog, the barbeque chicken burger and the stars. must go back there. diasappear into oblivious supernovas forever.