decisions.

i made the biggest decision of my life today. i mean it may not be big to any of you. but to me it is. I QUIT THE SHOW. that means losing my first musical. my big break or whatever. but i dont want to leave school early, and mainly im a student, not an actress, unapparent as it is. it didn't exactly feel good doing it. i partly felt sad. but i didnt want to be selfish. if i were to do the show, i have to do it well. i cant be late. cant be mediocre. my health's bad. i sleep in class. it's half everything. so in the end school first. it feels good. i learned that i can give up things. and it felt better when i did.

i kinda feel guilty about some things that normally happen but not with me. no to peer pressure. i hope God forgives for this one time. please God.

don't go away. (it always happens, i hope the cycle doesnt restart)