studying

is draining. i mean its okay but yeah all the new pieces of information...its a lot. and to preserve i guess i have to study a little everyday i have to force myself. im not brilliant. i must watch legally blonde. haha. i want to do this.

our maid threw the tickets and i cried and i later on realized that it was a happy thing.

i want to accomplish something everyday.

thats my new gameplan, world. today i fixed my room. and we drove to edsa. apparently, the billboard's up and being up on a pedestal is scary and stuff and yeah God knows whats going to happen. it's my t shirt incident of the century. this is my first and last. i swear next time ill be the photographer. i can trust the people who read this right? i mean i know i don't want to make this a big deal but im a little excited, i even have a picture of it. yes i am a dork nerd geek. im still me, normal one step below loser hannah and if that changes feel free to use just because your face is huge doesnt mean your head should be on me.





T H I S I S T H E L A S T T I M E

i refuse to talk about this again unless called for.

anyway i really really want a dog. i swear, i think i'll be happier or something. i dont know if this is just a stage or what.

i love my friends who stay there..here with me through thick and thin. who aren't so selfish. i miss katha and michelle who dont talk to me. i even talk to asia more. which is bad. but yeah they enlighten me a lot. today i was told to stop. and i will stop. haha! for my own good. my own great!

oh yeah i've been enlightened! i sorta kinda know now why i just can't. because i need someone who will dream with me till the stars fade away (yeah cheesy but who cares? haha) and who will accept my insanities and not tell me to grow up because im not ready to grow up yet! and who can talk to me and make me focus. i mean its a process but the clicking part isnt there yet you know? hahahaha okay maybe only one person gets this

reviews again tomorrow! yey. i actually enjoy those fifteen minute breaks with mark. but yeah its pointless to have summer flings. i should know. haha! this morning i wrote a chart of pros and cons for courses because im totally lost! i seriously dont know what i wanna be when i grow up except..photographer. and er. thats. pointless with no support. oh why cant life be a happy movie?

OH YEAH THE DA VINCI CODE IS R 18 AND I WOULD LIKE TO TELL MTRCB THAT THEY ARE STUPIDLY PROMOTING PIRACY AND THAT ITS POINTLESS TO CENSOR SOMETHING MORE THAN HALF OF WHAT THE WOULD BE AUDIENCE HAVE READ. THEY ARE STUPID LITTLE PRICKS. THE CHURCH IS PROMOTING THE YOUTH TO WATCH IT. HOW WILL WE IF YOU RATE IT 18 HMM HMM HMM? PLEASE QUIT IT I HATE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART RIGHT NOW FOR RUINING A BEAUTIFUL SUMMER. I ALREADY READ THE BOOK AND MY IMAGINATION IS AS VIVID AS THE MOVIE SCREEN GRRR

(dont get me wrong im not a da vinci code fanatic. im just in love with tom hanks and audrey tautou)