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today was a happy day and such. it's true that when your life sucks in one aspect it's good in another. strange, how much i complain everyday about how boring my life and my summer is, but i always find something to write about, and there's always something in my mind. weird.

anyway. today was a real happy day. genuine happiness not just laugh for the sake of it happiness. woke up late and wasn't able to go to school to get my edited work. anywho.

went to glorietta to meet kris and bea. i was there first and saw bea after 15 mins and we were wearing the exact same thing. aaaaack. it was funny though we looked like bodyguards of some sort for kris. or store workers. tapos we went around, stayed with awhile with asia and the merville girls, and a LOT of people from school were in that area too. i saw around 5 classmates 2 clubmates and a bunch of other people from school, aliw aliw. kris'(s) brother or sister michael or micah was there too, it was fun. we went shopping tapos yeah i wore the shirt i bought already since bianca and i were wearing the same thing (bag flips tank pants hair tan in the same color) not that we were overly conscious it was fun actually. we brought a pic of karmi since she was always away some faraway place existent in my dreams only.nah just kidding she was there in spirit anyway.

then we bought school stuff which was fun too.

so yeah, walking and talking hahaha i learned so much from kris' ate. wisdom. such wisdom. then we watched madagascar and it sucked. not nice as i expected. i can't wait for a lot like love though.

oh yeah i forgot to mention that we ate a lot. i feel so fat. seriously i think i should diet or whatever.

and yeah yey. what i was waiting for did sorta come and i was too happy about it.

at the end of the day we ate ulit. it's nice, the way we just talk about things there. life. love. things.

haha, bianca's text:

"....forever friends till i'm rotting in the kabaong. tama ba yun? love you guys!!"

sweet.

i love my friends.

Green Apples
chantal kreviazuk

You're toast and jam
And you are cotton candy
You're double rainbows
Beside a settin' sun
You're wood burnin' outside
There's a fire glowin'
You're sweet as green apples
You must be the one

You bring me
To the heart of a golden man
You bring me
To the natural truth
You take me
To the solid hollow
And keep me sailing
This ocean of youth

So take me to an altar of diamonds
And run with me through sheets of jungle rain
Show me all your manly mystery
And let me heal your beautiful pain

Be my island in crowds of faces
My oasis
Be there

And lead me to the holy water
And introduce me to the place you are from
Wherever you go you know I will follow
So take me there and I will come
I will come

I'm sayin' you're toast and jam
And you are cotton candy
You're double rainbows
Beside a settin' sun
You're wood burnin' outside
There's a fire glowin'
You're sweet as green apples
You must be the one

Sweet as green apples
You must be the one

?!

weekend

the westgrove trip was fun. i got tan lines from my shirt from just walking. pretty sights. as usual. i don't want to put all the pics here. so uhh, here are the ones before i get too lazy to upload more.



from up the web thingy in the playground there. guess who got vain :D

i am lucky to have a bestfriend like her. :D


i just had to make them do this :D

diana, monica, me and katha. we are all so tan. hahahaha

my sarong got burned because of the candle that was near the plastic of the taco shells. then we slept over at katha's. too groggy to wake up today. and yeeeeeah. sunday morning bad news. our prom's date is the same as ateneo's. which is bad news for a lot..esp th prom core. scared that our batchmates'll give us up. we are dead meat. haha, school hasn't started and we have a problem looming already. this is crazyyyyyyy!! and sad. argh. good news is, i get to keep the band :D mine nalang raw. but what's the band without people dancing to them that night? pessimism.

off to westgrove tomorrow. then tagaytay next week. my summer's kinda catching up too late. barely two weeks left. and my excitement has worn off a bit now that my friends are coming back home and i get to see them minus the uniforms, the worry, the teachers, the hectic-ness, the homework and oh yeah the homework. why didn't this summer start out too well?

no michelle tomorrow. :( (next time nalang, when we watch madagascar. haha, everyone seems to be inviting everyone to that movie!!) on the bright side there'll be katha, monica, diana, cara and ingrid, jacob might and probably enzo. i dunno.

maximize summer-ness!! haha. too bad this didn't happen too soon. oh well.

:: wag kang mabahala, di kita malilimutan ::

turning point

don't you dare call me that, i am not yours, and you had 14 years to prove it. forgive, but not forget. i remember. it's too hard to get used to this. you ruined me i fixed it and dont ruin me again by trying to fix whats not broken anymore. i'm sorry. or am i? i'd say it straight to your face but hell, i can't. im sorry that i have to be an angsty teenager right now. but this is what i am and you will never be part of it, im sorry but. thats the way things are for me. i'm not searching for you anymore. maybe im searching for the figure but it isn't you. i don't know you. i'm not going to get used to this.

__________________________________________________________________

the gigil is starting to take over again. haha. and i dunno whats going on, with me, with those people i care about, with life, with everything. i mean. something. wtf is wrong with me?? infinity seems to be a long time from now.

but i still want those million trillion lifetimes with you. you know. you who seems so far.

wtf, im being a deranged crazy girl once again. you're not suppsed to care btw.

BACK TO REALITY.

it's 2:16 am and we cooked spagghetti. idol. go bo. after this i'll shower pa. ate ming's on the phone. perfect i'll have someone up to wait with me while my hair dries. i think. or maybe i'll just skip sleeping today. what else.

i have become a paranoid weight conscious girl. i'm thin. i'm not supposed to be. vanity is our generation.

i hope bo wins tomorrow. though i wouldn't really mind if carrie did. it's american idol for God's sake. not philippine idol. why am i even caring!! haha. listening to straylight run. existensialism's pretty. i'd want to end this with it.

oh yeah i was asked kanina what if i died. i guess that it would be nice if the rest of the world died with you. i guess no death is selfish except suicide. it's sad to thinl that the world's going to keep on spinning even when you're decaying.

:: you would kill for this ::

*GIGIL*

what makes it worse is that i can't say why. i don't even know if i know. AAAAACK.

oh well.

okay have to go shopping for groceries now, till next time, tata!! :D

(i've been screeching on pillows the whole day)

oh yeah this is sooooooo cool. ;) nice for the eyes.

uber long post expected

i have now realized the convenience of having a yellow layout. yellow makes me happy. and it keeps me from posting sad stuff..and if i do, i tend to delete it because it doesn't feel right.

i have also realized the goodness of boredom. it forces you to think. like devious plans for world peace. or world domination. mostly, crappy plans for the year. i'm also thinking of how much i hate desire..and how i can't entirely remove desire anyway, so i'm letting it drive me...using it as motivation, you know? so yeah, mostly things like that are going through my head nowadays.

i'm thinking of the future and what will become of my life...haha, everyone seems to be nowadays. i mean, the people around me are thinking about it, which kinda sucks. personally i'd love to just soar into the great unknown however cheesy that might sound. it just seems to be a better idea than planning the future and getting disappointed that your plan didn't work out. like those filthy rich sad people. but yeah, the pressure's there. so i guess i should at least plan a fraction of it like college stuff. i don't know yet what i really really want. i have my options listed but i don't know what i'd want to do for the rest of my life.

i'm psyched for school, i can't wait. it's waaaay better than being stuck here at home, but when school comes i guess i'll be longing for summer again, thinking that it'll be an escapade of some sort when i'm just stuck at home mostly anyway.

i haven't gone to the beach the whole summer. work. ain't my summer beautiful.

oh well. i realized that i've been too angsty the past few. even my mom noticed. but hey not my fault, that's how it is when you're stuck at home. you become a batty old spinster. yeah, take those cliche women who scream at the mailman with their rollers still in their heads. yeah, being stuck at home does that to people. i try not to blame anyone, but it's really FRUSTRATING. just being here, and when i'm old i'll look back at these days and regret everything. it's annoying and it gets to my nerves. i'm hating a lot of things right now, and it's not the way it's supposed to be. i never really hated them before, never let those things ruin my mood and here i am, and i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

that helped.

i'm looking at the year ahead. and just thinking of it seems difficult. but i think i'll get by. like everyone. ;)

what else. (i'm making this as long as possible to burn time)

oh yeah, i'm looking forward to a lot of things, i'm kinda psyched just thinking about it, because compared to this chair and this keyboard, this computer, this sad state, everything else seems to be loads of fun. i'm looking forward to:

1. katha's arrival (i hope ya see this kat)
2. going out with m and k
3. that trip, wherever it may be, even just in canyon or wherever
4. MADAGASCAR heehee :D
5. AI finals
6. company classes resuming
7. BACK TO SCHOOL :D however geeky that sounds
8. prom planning
9. the prom itself. (which is about a million years from now but hey time flies)
10. gc stuff
11. my birthday. yes i know it's about a decade from now but i want a new camera i dont care if i dont have a party or anything, just that.
12. november. don't ask :D
13. july. half blood prince,

yes, that's only what i can think of at the moment as my brain is now begging me to stop this nonsense.

i'm starting to get used to doing things routinely, and it isn't too bad. it's possible. maybe i'll be able to study well too. i hope. junior year's crucial.

i am abnegating (haha nice word) iced tea and coke and powdered juice. well, lessening intake anyway. haha, it could make your teeth yellow, i heard. no matter how much i like yellow, i don't want my teeth to be. so yeah, it'll pay off in the long run.

whew. that was long. i wonder what i'll do next. it's only 3pm and i have run out of things to do. ciao!!:D hope you didn't read all of that. ;)

:: i feel like when i'm old, i'll look at you and know the world was beautiful ::

i can't think of anything to put in this box

things have been less boring lately. i think. well actually they aren't, i'm just kinda used to it by now.

my dreams are starting to get weird again. last night i dreamed i got free pancakes from mcdo. and from every other resto there is. a while ago, because of boredom, i slept and i dreamed that we were kids and we were eating ice cream. my axn-ish dreams have been long gone. haha. and my crush dreams are still there. they're way better than my dreams of the whole world turning on me and my only friend was a baby elephant though.

oh yeah, let's save the trees btw.

cadillac blues

listening to sa tollgate. sad they didn't release it, i think it'd be in my top 5 eraserheads songs. together with alapaap, maselang bahaghari, ligaya and the like. anywho.

so yeah, our day was weird yesterday, and so is everything. i don't know.

ate ming and i rejoiced today, the cable's finally back. but that means something bad too, so im not sure if im even ready to be selfless right now to people i dont like.

saw star wars 3, and that's like, what half of everyone is writing in their blogs and im not in the mood to write any comments, i just wanna see the 4th 5th and 6th episode because i dont remember the details. it's annoying, my big crush on hayden christensen is coming back. it shouldn't. haha, he was so sexy in the movie!! i cant believe i just said that.

what else. i'm too lazy to type other things in a coherent order so sue me. bullets are cool. and so is randomness.

• my arms hurt from videocam-ing last night
• my feet hurt from the acid thingy
• my tummy hurts kasi im hungry
• my head hurts because it's so hot
• my heart hurts too.
• NOT.
• of the above, only statement number one is true
• i am making a pact of NEVER letting anyone cut my bangs, be it the parlor. bangs are irritating and must be boycotted. after i grow them out anyway
• being in the pit chorus is fun, you don't have to practice blocking, nor do you have to worry about making mistakes. which is a bad mentality but today i am at my tollgate
• i realized that because of cleaning my table and my dresser, my closet is screaming at me to fix it too, which is bad because im definitely not in the mood to do so.
• i must stop wanting things. it is bad.
• practicing my verbal yoda skills i am. cool, yoda is
• realized the benefits of telekinesis i have. someone has invented these powers it's about time.
• missing my friends, i am. lonely i am.
• autistic for practicing this, i am.

i need a vacation from this vacation.

perfect-smashing pumpkins

I know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost

but please you know you're just like me
next time I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind

i must be congratulated for my room now looks like a room!!:D i cleaned it and i am so proud of myself, oh yeah!!:D

:: if you don't mind believing that love changes everything, time will never matter. ::

bad haircut.

bangs man, bangs.

oh well. it grows back. i hope as fast as possible.

AAAAAACK. this sucks!!:(

add something bad to that and voila!! a very bad day. yey.

haha. oh well, i guess things like this really happen to people. oh well. gotta live with it.

tough luck

i opened the box of frosties and hey, guess what, it was the same toy from the last box! grr. oh well. and everyone i called wasn't home. and ana wasn't going with us. oh well again.

i'm school sick. i miss this. i miss them!! AAAAAAACK. is this actually happenning?

2s0405

www.2s-05.tk

ang cute nung kid na binigyan ko ng loose change. when i came out of the mall she lit up, smiled at me and waved. i waved back, maybe she needed that. aliwwww.

anywhere but here

funny how helpless the people on the other line are. i remember when we were kids and would prank call people. see who gets to keep people on the other line the longest. too bad caller id's were invented. sometimes lonely people would answer. and i dunnow what my point is. i guess that's just the way i felt 5 minutes ago when i answered a phone call from the wrong number. anywhoo.

i was eating a caramel sundae and i was a happy girl. till i realized that it was all gooooone. and i want more. it's so f-ing hot here, you can feel the sweat trickle down your nose. aaaaack. i hate talking about the weather. but this. this is inevitable. when i was a kid i wanted to kill ernie baron for the rains. now i want them to pour!! it's too hot to do anything productive. now i want to kill ernie baron to bring them back. wait, is he even alive? i wouldn't know, i dont watch tv anymore. it's too hot. (that was an exxageration)

ugh i so want to get away from this place. all my friends seem to be away. off to exotic places. the only exotic thing in this house is the good ol laz-y boy. not even exotic. more of ancient. i want to run away to paris or new york!! actually any place with my friends would do. even school. i miss school. and when i go back i'll miss summer. it's a sick cycle. that evil ancient teachers invented to torture kids.

omg, i miss katha.

what the hell, i'm going ballistic here!! i can't wait to go. anywhere. the next time i'll be going out is still on saturday and that seems about a million years away. this is torture. i'd be happier living in an asylum.

:: love is proof of the unseen ::

read this!!:D

What does Love mean?

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over
and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it
for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis
too. That's love."
Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is
different. You just know that your name is safe in their
mouth."
Billy - age 4 (OMG, this is sooooooo true)

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on
shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of
your French
fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy -age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she
takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get
tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you
talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look
gross when they kiss"
Emily - age 8 (hahahahahahahahahaha)

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you
stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with
a friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he
wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7 (hidden meaning)

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who
are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was
scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my
daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I
wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8 ( :( this is how i feel most of the time)

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone
else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still
says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7 (oh goodness, sana when i get married, gnyan)

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you
left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all
her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4 (hahaha uto-uto)

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and
little stars come out of you."
Karen - age 7 (haha, i dunno what she meant but this is so true)

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she
doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it.
But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People
forget."
Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once
talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose
of the contest was to find the most caring child.

The winner was a four year old child whose next door
neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his
wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the
old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat
there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the
neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him
cry"


sana we're all like that!!:D the last one's a little bit out of the picture, but it's nice anyway. this is so cute. but amazingly true. if only we all saw love that way.

armo n connie!!

this was so funny i had to put it here!! yehey. haha. aliw, thyre looking at one direction.

cheer up, emo kid

that's ella's profile in her phone, and i dunno why. it inspired me today. haha. everyone's emo nowadays. i mean, everyone's all sad. our generation must cheer up!! or else our future will be sad too!! i mean, we can't be too petty. the big world's out there!! hahaha. easy for me to say at the moment, i guess.

every little thing my friends say hits me nowadays. maybe it's because my brain wants to think since it isn't getting any dose of thoughts. ;P my world is getting smaller.

the other day i finally got to talk to michelle once again. yey. i kinda missed being close to her. actually i think i just kinda miss all my friends.

i think that maybe it might be wrong, but i just can't do it. i can't force myself to love you, because you were never there..i'm sorry, i think that it's enough that i forgave you, but i can't forget. how? it's too hard. i've covered up that hole already and i don't need you to fill it up. sorry. i can't.

last song syndrome

need i say more? i never really thought about this until it got stuck in my head. now it's like, the most beautiful line. i just had to make it.

space shuttle

this can begin
forget the rest of the world
it's just me and you this time
and the crazy roller coaster ride

a million years is what it takes
we're getting to the top
with every inch my hands start to shake
as we get closer to the stars

butterflies come
my hand in yours
and i get numb
you're all i feel

and we get there, we let go
we let our emotions flow
scream our lungs out
like this night would last forever

suspended on cold metal tracks
the stars are now beneath us
and here i am, upside down
feet over head, in love

and this whole night is ours
the bright lights and the fire eaters
the moon, the stars and the resident clowns
and the crazy roller coaster ride

it's no cheap thrill

today i was with ana, sarah and tara. me and tara had the exact same shirt. it was funny. and fun. laugh trip when i'm with them. we had our pics taken in time zone which was pretty crazy. i am going back in there.

i don't really want to put any more thoughts in here. if i do, i might just explode. haha.

naiisip ko yung sinasabi ng CLE teacher ko. like how something may just be trash to one person and sacred to another, because a memory lives inside of it. little scraps..pictures, tickets, cheap things (which aren't so cheap), candy wrappers, papers, coke can seals, colorful stickers..those things. currently, the things i consider sacrosanct are kinda weird things. i am becoming a pack rat.

pictures

if only i had a nice camera, then maybe they wouldn't look this way.

david!!
me and ate ming
white shoes
my socks!! haha, sorry i just had to put that here
kids peeping from a jeep
pop pop pop gum (ate ming)
theatre lights..backstage.

:: it's these little things that stand the test of time ::

mothers' day. left the present by the bed staircase. she saw it and liked it, yey. then church, i was only semi-awake. my eyes still wanted to close. after that we went to mc do for breakfast. then off to0 a faraway land. bulacan. went to the sementeryo after then back home, then met with francis to give him that pic that he wanted. uhuh. tapos kwentuhan. then we went home. half of the time, i forgot what else happenned because i was alseep..i have to finish the essay anyway.

still thinking if i want to be an orientation leader. parang i do. hahahahaha. orrrr miss a trip to ek. ol nalang, i guess.

thoughts thoughts thoughts. i'm going to explode. but life is being kinda nice to me anyway. i wonder what i'll have to give up soon.

i hate growing up. :( i just want to stay a kid. well, most of the time anyway. peter pan syndrome. i missed swimming yesterday. tis fine though. still wondering where the summer is coming to..

okay so i was bored.

unang taong/lugar/whatever naaalala

1. pen- man
2. paper-boats
3. school- happiness
4. holiday- blues
5. pillow- softness
6. ice cream- cake
7. fast food-kfc
8. song- when it's over
9. gimik- place
10. dog- pong
11. ex- boyfriend
12. turtle- sam
12. pool- yesterday
13. billiards- green
14. country- neverland
15. true friend- love
16. hate- *****
17. life- love
18. cellphone- life
19. bed- warm
20. ring- heart
22. blue- sadness
23. orange-tj
24. purple- faye
25. pink- ate lyn
26. green-alon
27. teacher- lisa
28. subject- king
29. game- life
30. tambayan- bayan
31. cigar- whitelights
32. powerpuff girls- bubbles
33. power- mind
34. love-
35. dream - depressing

labo. my answers are not at all coherent. im dying of boredom. this is waaay depressing. it kills the life out of me. i wonder what happens to my life next.

:: paglipas ng ulan ay mapapangiti ang araw, huwag sanang mawala ang maselang bahaghari ::

happiness

i won a trip. see.





anyway, that is not the sole reason of my happy state. today today today. letsee.

i woke up early. went to the hospital. and i am happy that i am not sick of something i feared!! yey. and finally, finally my mom had her irritation checked. and got the correct medication.

after that, lunch with family, it was super magulo..yadayada. then company class.

then my day finally began.

(yes i copied that. ;D)

random things..

-okay, so greenbelt. then glorietta. the greenbelt once more.
-ran around in circles. and ovals. and octagons. and stars. whatever.
-i am now the rightful owner of a super hero panda that flies
-my havaianas were put to good use (?)
-if a picture paints 1000 words, i have 5000
-the bill was late, but it didn't really matter. not too much
-saw a disturbing buddha in a butterfly
-he asked me and i said yes so i asked him too and he said yes
-and yes, i am a happy, happy girl

after that, we attempted to go to bulacan. but it was traffic. so we went back.

a lot can happen in a year. and i'm going to make happy things happen. i'll try. :D

:: I remember the stupid things, the mood rings, the bracelets and the beads, nickels and dimes, yours and mine, did you cash in all your dreams, you don't dream for me, no, but I still feel you pulse like sonar from the days in the waves, i'll never let you go ::

maybe when i'm done with endings, this can begin

weird day.

by the end of the day, i:

-had my hair cut 2 inches shorter and weirder
-drew 10 mermaids
-tied 10 balloon strings on wrists, fingers and together
-drew 40 darnas (not exaggerating)
-collapsed (slept and not fainted) in a couch at the studio for i was tired
-ate dirty ice cream with outreach kids
-hugged around 20 people, mostly orphans
-sent 30 or more texts
-drank 3 glasses of royal (too much!)
-rode in 4 different cars
-mixed 5 spaghettis
-distributed 30 balloons
-went to a party feeling really dirty
-went home rushing to watch american idol
-had the time of my life doing it

so yeah, long day. outreach again. at the white cross orphanage, it was crazy, there were 60 kids all asking for balloons. i got to be the balloon girl and the girl who drew darna (i invented it, and got a vague idea because of a blog of one aquaintance), haha, it was super crazy..there was a kid brought in just yesterday, still crying, "mama, papa, mama, papa." she was inconsolable.

carrie underwood's second song was nice. "God blessed the broken road that led me to you." You who helps me get through life..i can't explain the way i feel, for i never thought this would happen. But it is, and i'm happy that it is.

maybe it can. (see the title :D )

i hope it does...




::there are many things that i would like to say to you but i dont know how::

weird turns

life takes them. like bullets, they shoot you too fast before you can resist them. and you die. not knowing how or why. wtf.

no cheap thrill

i won a cookie. my little cousin asked me to pick and whoever gets the star win the cookie. i got the star. and now he's repeating "ate hannah is so lucky she got the star!!"

that cookie must've been made with love.

::is the lucky beginner just a five-card stud?is this winning streak going to be nipped in the bud?::

no more scottie

i'm enjoying, listening to breakup songs. is that abnormal? they're nice anyway.

i dont know what to write in here soooooo.

note that today is may 5, 2005. 555. and it's 5:55...made a wish, sabay kami ni daniel (happy?:D haha kidding this is non compulsary like the playlist) just in case it comes true. hope it does.

how should i feel?

:: open your eyes i'll still be by your side, you give me something to sleep to, don't leave me now ::

sort of

the past few days have been fun. which kinda sucks if you ask me..like if you're already at the uppermost level of euphoria all you can go is down. well, for me anyway. i'm bracing myself for the worst.

"As with most common dream themes, falling is an indication of insecurities, instabilities, and anxieties. Falling dreams also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation. It may be the fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love."

"You dream that you are flying, feeling free. Your flight may evolve as an escape from some bad situation."

Ang labo ng dreams ko. They're way better than the spongebob murdering me dreams though.

The other day, my cousins were all here and we all slept in the living room in the fold out couch. i was sandwiched between four boys. The snoring was horrid and the kicking was bad too. Twas fun though. We roasted marshmallows and hotdogs and made smores. First time we had something like this since...ever.

Then yesterday i woke up and my back was aching. My cousins had different positions and the other one was in the couch already, the other one fell of the bed a couple of times..then yon more bonding. I realized that i didn't have to hate one of my cousins, which is good. We're pretty much okay. Then i went with my aunts to katipunan. Birthday party, nakakaaliw na nakakailang. But it was good in the end. Kulit.

Then today I'll be doing something productive i guess.

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i don't know.

this site is the coolest haha. --- www.postsecret.blogspot.com

makes you think. a lot.

like this one..




and this



and



and one of the really striking ones..



and inspiring..(?)




and here's something really cool. i don't know why exactly, but it's so..passionate


wala lang.

loooong day

the day.

came and went, it was happy naman. tried to kick ass and maybe i nudged..i'm free. how nice. i'll type everything i can remember. so i can remember. haha.

started the day at greenhills..little shopping. blablabla. did a run yadayada..the heat was really up since things were still real rough and stuff. people were mad and shouting and swearing and stuff. then show na. :D

it was fun.

lea salonga was in the audience.

i nearly died.

so here are some of the pictures..

this one's the encore..

a. dream. come. true.




after the show.. (since we weren't allowed to drink as in drink in the cast party)


nikki..:D

denise..:D

china.:D

hannah the nerd

they look so sad..

ibang trip to




other shots i took when i was bored. :D

haha. ha. aliw.

ducky


things were pretty fun backstage..we got the nice dressing room. umm, im too lazy to type, and no one cares anyway. haha.

today i went swimming and i didn't burn and we're having a super cousin sleepover. everyone's here, and the kids are running around. and we're gonna roast marshmallows. i think. so anyway, it's dinner time gotta run!!