criskets
school's been a crazy ride. but it's okay. we were allowed to sleep in some classes since the teachers finally saw that were all weak from lack of sleep or something... but oh well. school's school. too bad it has to be that way. i often think of how much more life could be. i want an adventure! haha. to live in a rainforest would be fun. or to paris and sit in cafes. or in the suburbs..or an international school perhaps. i dunno. it just feels like such a waste when i think that way. yesterday, i finally felt what it was like to live. i dunno. sick reasons..i finally accepted some grudges. and i will let go of them. good luck to me! and i realized how good it is to forgive. and how important it is to be yourself. i do realize how incoherent i am.
patis and john are leaving for the u.s. this saturday. everyone's leaving. i wanna cry. haha.. if only life in the philippines weren't so complicated. but it's okay, i only get one life anyway so i guess living this challenge is fine. i think i think too much lately. i hardly talk. but i'm not tulala either. my mind just goes somewhere faraway from here. sometmes i think i just need someone to talk to. not that i don't talk to katha and michelle. just that i don't really get to tell them a lot of things. or anyone for that matter. haha. oh God, please don't let me die a schizophrenic. i don't know what i want. haha. i just want to go awaaaaay. heehee. pms nga to. i can't sleep this early. i need to be in school by 4 am. crap.
i love my little cousins. theyre sleeping over. they're so noisy. and they're so cute. "ate hannah i can't find the tamarind! hey john do you have your pj's?""what are pj's? does it stand for patis and john?""let's just go to lego land!" daarn how i miss those childhood days where nothing really matters like the bohemian rhapsody.
ano pa ba. i want to type and type. it helps calm my nerves. gives me somthing to do. i need to sleep or else i'll lose my voice tomorrow! but i can't sleep because i'm used to staying up! God help me! haha. i want to eat. i ate crickets. did i mention that already? basta i did. it tasted salty and yukky at the same time. tata!